Worth

What in all the world is worth it all?

Worth anything?

Worth living for?

Worth dying for?

Worth breating for?

Worth crying for?

Worth rejoicing for?

Worth living for?

Worth dying for?

Worth everything?

Let me count....

One.

Say It Again

Say it again, please.
It feels like catching bullets.
I'm pouring my heart out to you,
Why are you spitting it back in my face?
Maybe you call it flirting.
Can't you see just how I'm hurting

Say it again please, just say it again.

I'll cry when you leave, but will you ever see
The cracks your making on my heart?
Its breaking in your hands
'cause i nieve was enough to leave it to you to smash

Do you even know what you're holding?
I'm trying to breathe without a heart.

I'm struggling to survive.
I want the world to realize
Whose blood it is on your hands.
Who is holding my heart
While all I need is for you to hold my hand.

I'm just lying on the floor, dying,
But i don't know which would be
Worse, watching my heart turn
Black in your grasp, or watching
It shatter in the sand beside me.

So just say it again.

    All of a sudden the room grew gravely still. Rude and harsh eyes wash over us and the world paused for half a moment. I glance from his new frown to the familiar swish of velvet color, and down to the small tear stain on my yellow bodice. The world stirrs, with a few hesitant coughs in the background. Eric forced a smile and placed a hand on the small of my back, leading me through the grand golden doors. Red uniformed attendants closed the doors behind us as a waltz began.

    Eric's hand fiddled with the back of my dress, and I closed my eyes, taking a breath of the crisp night air. The stars smiled at me when I reopened my eyes, and for a moment, I could imagine this moment never ending. This moment, in which all that mattered was the stars glittering, feeling the warmth of Eric through the silk dress, and his lips lightly brushing my ear.

    "Why?" He whispered.

    "All I want is to fall in love with you, but the second that I do, I stop myself, because I know that you won't catch me."

    "I'll take care of you."

    "But will you love me?"

Silver

Gold is good. Gold is glory.

Gold is for winning. success. the best.

I'm the girl in silver.

Silver is on step away from the top of the world.

Silver is eating crumbs but smelling cake.

Silver is giving everything, and still not be good enough.

Silver is losing. failure. the worst.

Silver isn't a color or a metal.

Silver is tugging on my neck, hanging heavily.

Gold is right.

Silver is wrong.

I am silver.

Beat

                dead
          born     now                                             alive.
    heart               can                                     now      A                                                             evils
A                           beat.                              is              heart                                              and the   of this
                                     A       and blue heart                   born                   salvaged from ruin             world.
                                       black                                            from            been
                                                                                              greed    has
                                                                                                and woe








                            sacrified                                                                      has                                                   forever.
                       been        to the                                                         heart   gone                                     last
                 it has                 depths                                                My            to                                  will
Or perhaps,                                of                            a forien beat.                  waste         But this heart
                                                     darkness      there is                                            elsewhere           .
                                                            Replacing