I've always been a friend to failure.
I set myself up to meet him,
face to face.
Over the years,
his bitter eyes have become a degree warmer.
a bit friendlier. almost neutral.
It doesn't hurt meeting him.
Not anymore.
But I'm afraid of the pain
But I'm afraid of the pain
returning once more.
You see, I've always been
a dreamer, not a doer.
And seeing these dreams crash
around me is just too
painful a thought to bear.
Maybe I should just
quit while I'm ahead.
You're a truly great writer this conveys emotion very well, but it makes me sad. I'm glad you put the background for this, it explained it well, and I'm glad you don't still feel like this. Have you ever read the Bible? I pray you do, it is the most amazing book after all :) If you do though, I want you to remember this truth...He is no failure and He is in you! He is the king of kings and He loves you more than you know! It's funny but when I find myself to be a "friend to failure" (which is quite often I assure you) it's because I've forgotten my new life in Jesus the Christ. We have victory in Jesus. :)
ReplyDelete"You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the One who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. 1 John 4:4" anyway I just wanted to share that, Great writing again! :)
Thanks. I do read the Bible, but writing poetry is kinda like my version of therapy. I write, and i feel better, but doing one thing can't heal completely. I retype and post almost everything. Its kinda like letting go a bit more. I can't hold on to it anymore, its not just my emotion anymore. Thats kinda one of the final steps to moving on, because I am driven by my emotions, amd I know I shouldnt be. Its kinda my way to release pain and anguish and frustration in a positive way so that it doesnt control me. Does that kinda make sense? Thank you for praying!
ReplyDeleteYeah makes sense. I use poetry as a form of release too, many a poem I've made that was written in sadness, but God is so good hey, He gives us means to let it out and cast our burdens at His feet! :)
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